The Walls Around Me
The Walls Around Me reflects the changes that have occurred since returning to my childhood home through exploring – or re-experiencing – a space.
Departing from the comfort of childhood in search of independence and growth is natural, leaving behind the physical and taking everything you have learned with you. What happens when you are placed back at the beginning, but only in the physical sense? Returning to my childhood home, everything that was once familiar is now lost in the walls around me.
It is impossible for a room alone to carry a memory, but once my mind enters the space I am instantly transported. My stream of consciousness is balanced between the distant memories – triggered by smell, touch, colour – met with the discomfort of the reality of present-day and the growing pains that have followed me. I cannot relive what I have already experienced, I can only reflect on how my experiences have shaped me through the notion of returning to a space that I have ultimately outgrown.
Gillian Macdonald is a Toronto-based photographer. Her main focus is on documentary and conceptual photography exploring the vast human experience through both digital and film-based mediums.